27/3/30 Fri
R came to meet for lunch at Texas. Wraps & biscuits. Sweet 🍬
Tuesday, March 31, 2020
Tuesday, March 24, 2020
Saturday, March 7, 2020
Day off. Rode. Jess’s INternational Women’s day ride turned out a but disorganized. Rode my own choices instead. Turned bck at bke and went to Scorpion. Out at Bangkit then Bt Pnjg kopi & sweet potato. Hot day and sweating like a horse when I first cos I was rushing to carpark. Didn't have much rest and they pulled out. Needless to say felt it in the body .. watery eyes, soaked to the bone. Stopped at Bt Batok Nature Reserve for a quiet time. Japanese music in background.
Goal : Dont forget why you started in the first place (after months of no ride)
Goal : To get back stamina and endurance.
Plan : Ride on my own time, feel and listen to my body and lung health. Be aware of breathing improvement. Pull back when necessary. Grow slow and upwards.
Goal : Dont forget why you started in the first place (after months of no ride)
Goal : To get back stamina and endurance.
Plan : Ride on my own time, feel and listen to my body and lung health. Be aware of breathing improvement. Pull back when necessary. Grow slow and upwards.
Wednesday, March 4, 2020
5/3/20 Thursday
The day of the concert.
I ended up a little over the usual time waking up and preparing for work. That ended up in no time for breakfast at home. A quick preparation of the chicken sandwich (roast chicken from Giant) with a brown bread and a kaya sandwich, I was out of the house. Will be stationed at FF today and hoping to claim some hours to prepare for tonight’s concert.
The day of the concert.
I ended up a little over the usual time waking up and preparing for work. That ended up in no time for breakfast at home. A quick preparation of the chicken sandwich (roast chicken from Giant) with a brown bread and a kaya sandwich, I was out of the house. Will be stationed at FF today and hoping to claim some hours to prepare for tonight’s concert.
Tuesday, March 3, 2020
Quiet day at the Garden. Alone at arrival. Had a quick chat over coffee with Fad at Serene Gdn.
Did a 5k run ( aiming at being back home within an hour and I did ). Some stretching after at the viewing platform.
SS says we are going ahead with the concert since I am Ok with it (situation with virus). Scorpion & WhiteSnake at the Star Theatre !
Did a 5k run ( aiming at being back home within an hour and I did ). Some stretching after at the viewing platform.
SS says we are going ahead with the concert since I am Ok with it (situation with virus). Scorpion & WhiteSnake at the Star Theatre !
Sunday, March 1, 2020
Sunday 1st March
1st day of period. Heavy. Migraine that lasted the whole day. Got home after Am shift and tried resting. After a half hour nap, the migraine got worse. Asked Niner if he could get a box of Pana Extra and he did ! Sent to my flat and sat chatting for a bit with a bonus head massage.
⭐️⭐️⭐️
Saturday, February 29, 2020
We had a ride together after bumping into each other at the bottom of Bangkit Hut. I was showing a belgian and a hungarian roadies around CN.
So he joined me for a drink at Bt Pnjg and we ended up chatting for 4 hours ?
• He offered to buy me a running shoe becos I asked for a pair from ssp which he didnt have.
• He offered to send me to work in the morning.
• Invited me to a Scorp & WSnake concert at Star
• Rode home with me to Clmti.
Lets see how all these turn out.
So he joined me for a drink at Bt Pnjg and we ended up chatting for 4 hours ?
• He offered to buy me a running shoe becos I asked for a pair from ssp which he didnt have.
• He offered to send me to work in the morning.
• Invited me to a Scorp & WSnake concert at Star
• Rode home with me to Clmti.
Lets see how all these turn out.
Friday, February 28, 2020
Why its not a good idea to go back to your ex.
All those bad memories you had of fights, all those things that annoyed you about the person and all the things you did to hurt each other all come back. It doesn’t all come back at once, but in big waves. The fights start up again and a few long months later, you’re back where you started: broken
All those bad memories you had of fights, all those things that annoyed you about the person and all the things you did to hurt each other all come back. It doesn’t all come back at once, but in big waves. The fights start up again and a few long months later, you’re back where you started: broken
Thursday, February 27, 2020
Not ‘should’ but ‘will’. Get back to small steps flow yoga.
So the girls wanted to loose weight and I have jumped on the bandwagon in the hope of loosing some along with them. Its only 2nd day but I am happy to have at least put in an effort at baking my $2.90 norwegian salmon from the vending machine at Sunset Way. A broccoli head cost $2.40 which could be divided into two meal portion including a packet of mangetout for $1.60. Aussie pumpkin is a little bit more costly though at $2.40 but they sure are delicious roasted ! Today I added some boiled carrots and Really am looking forward to lunch at 3:30pm with my chinese tea from Joe and watching Grace & Frankie on Netflix. My alone time .. absolute peace & relaxing ...
Its my day off tmrw and that usually is a bit more tricky cos I tend not to cook and eat out. Just need to make a conscious effort and be more aware of what I put on my plate. Just vegie dishes the last time I ate at Bt Pnjg. Delicious tempe with petai !
So the girls wanted to loose weight and I have jumped on the bandwagon in the hope of loosing some along with them. Its only 2nd day but I am happy to have at least put in an effort at baking my $2.90 norwegian salmon from the vending machine at Sunset Way. A broccoli head cost $2.40 which could be divided into two meal portion including a packet of mangetout for $1.60. Aussie pumpkin is a little bit more costly though at $2.40 but they sure are delicious roasted ! Today I added some boiled carrots and Really am looking forward to lunch at 3:30pm with my chinese tea from Joe and watching Grace & Frankie on Netflix. My alone time .. absolute peace & relaxing ...
Its my day off tmrw and that usually is a bit more tricky cos I tend not to cook and eat out. Just need to make a conscious effort and be more aware of what I put on my plate. Just vegie dishes the last time I ate at Bt Pnjg. Delicious tempe with petai !
💥 If someone doesn't love you with everything they have or you don't love them with everything you have, then there's no point trying over and over again. Giving it another go won't make you commit to each other more deeply, or love each other more. It's only when you realize just how much you truly deserve that you can stop accepting inferior relationships, and cut and run for good 💥💥💥
Wednesday, February 26, 2020
1st Day eat Healthy
Fit and Fab
- Su Sally Siti and me
Eton, Su and I met at Hjh Maimunah. After stuffing our faces with rice tahu telor and ikan kichap, we had teh at Sarabat Arab St, each in their new found blouse from Golden Landmark.
Picked up Sally at TPayoh on the way to Siti’s at Marsiling. Thats where Sally proposed that we start a Club to loose weight in a hope of loosing 10kg in 1 and half months !! Quite an impossibility but I will join and do what I can to spur each and everyone.
Fit and Fab
- Su Sally Siti and me
Eton, Su and I met at Hjh Maimunah. After stuffing our faces with rice tahu telor and ikan kichap, we had teh at Sarabat Arab St, each in their new found blouse from Golden Landmark.
Picked up Sally at TPayoh on the way to Siti’s at Marsiling. Thats where Sally proposed that we start a Club to loose weight in a hope of loosing 10kg in 1 and half months !! Quite an impossibility but I will join and do what I can to spur each and everyone.
Monday, February 24, 2020
Sunday, February 23, 2020
🌿 Speak in such a way that others love to listen to you. Listen in such a way that others love to speak to you 🌿🌹
• When someone invites you to stay with them if you were to ever come around to their neck of the woods 🌿 Huge compliment 🌹23/2/20
An unsatisfied English couple spoke to me about their grievances (audio device malfunctioning and lack of information which they find very frustrating).
Friday, February 21, 2020
Even when Life is hard, being grateful about what you have is good enough to feel positive - Xandra Oii
Day off today and Adam suggested the movies. We ended up at Shaw Lido watching 1917. A world war 1 movie which left me feeling fear, worry and finally relief.
Dad called in the middle of the movie asking me to come over to hospital asap. Turns out he wanted an envelope from his locked drawer to be handed to Leha.
Glad and grateful for my health. Please Ju, eat better, eat healthier 🥬🌿 Lets do this !!
Day off today and Adam suggested the movies. We ended up at Shaw Lido watching 1917. A world war 1 movie which left me feeling fear, worry and finally relief.
Dad called in the middle of the movie asking me to come over to hospital asap. Turns out he wanted an envelope from his locked drawer to be handed to Leha.
Glad and grateful for my health. Please Ju, eat better, eat healthier 🥬🌿 Lets do this !!
Friday, February 14, 2020
Dad got sent to A&E with an ambulance.
His breathing was tight suddenly and he went unconscious. We rushed to ktph and I met KLe and AbgAz at the foodcourt. Sat chatting for a while and left on the train later to reach home by 10:30pm. A pretty anxious night praying that dad will pull through. Woke up in the morning with a msg from Ham who sent a couple of photos of dad awake and eating. Felt better and managed to fall back to sleep till 11:30am ! Felt good.
Visited him with Ad but due to the virus outbreak, Ad had to stay downstairs due to the 1visitor per patient rule imposed. Fed dad some talam from Bengawan Solo and he finished a tub of yogurt. Felt good seeing him eating and awake.
Took train back with Ad and watched a few episodes of the hilarious Grace and Frankie (Jane Fonda and Lily Tomlin). Hoping to ride tomorrow !
His breathing was tight suddenly and he went unconscious. We rushed to ktph and I met KLe and AbgAz at the foodcourt. Sat chatting for a while and left on the train later to reach home by 10:30pm. A pretty anxious night praying that dad will pull through. Woke up in the morning with a msg from Ham who sent a couple of photos of dad awake and eating. Felt better and managed to fall back to sleep till 11:30am ! Felt good.
Visited him with Ad but due to the virus outbreak, Ad had to stay downstairs due to the 1visitor per patient rule imposed. Fed dad some talam from Bengawan Solo and he finished a tub of yogurt. Felt good seeing him eating and awake.
Took train back with Ad and watched a few episodes of the hilarious Grace and Frankie (Jane Fonda and Lily Tomlin). Hoping to ride tomorrow !
Wednesday, February 12, 2020
Thurs FF today with Russell the new casual
Yesterday Wednesday was my day off. I had decided not to do much but managed to pull myself onto the pcn and did a slow 4km jog which ended up at Springleaf ( after so long ) for 2 pratas. Trying to stick to short, quick runs isn't as easy as I thought. The plan is 3k as often as possible. Why is it difficult to motivate myself ? After all it's not like it'll cause me pain on my knees or hip as it did with the previous longer distance running. Has it to do with overthinking of my current issues ? It will all work out !
Anyway, will try harder. This year is going to present a new adventure and challenges. Mainly with the property buying which will be soon I hope ! After 2019, I am ready to move on to a new chapter. Give yourself permission to show up in a small way..
Work
Currently the state of the virus (nCov2019) is at the forefront of everyone's mind. Personally I am still concerned over my travels to work (bus and mrt). The advice from MOH is not to wear mask unless you are sick but at the same time there had been reports of local transmission from people to people who have not traveled to China. That does not help my confidence. I have questions. Questions on how they purify the air in these public transport. I was shy at using the mask once, especially during the haze and went gungho on it. But this time, equipped with a mask and sanitizer dangling at the front of my bag, I'd go to work :D : Update ( 50 positive cases as of today )
On the personal front, I am realising how I am slowly being pulled into changing. Adapting a behaviour which I am not proud of. Why do I do it ? I think it's because of the deep need (which I did not realise) of wanting to be accepted and be on par with F since she is my sup. I am also observing certain traits and character about her. Is she insecure ? Why is she so affected by Medusa ? What do I have to do to handle my own emotion ? Reacting is certainly the wrong thing to do.
Perhaps I need to pull back now before it gets worse. Back to a milder, less toxic thoughts. Back out from the little space I have allowed to create with F. A space which isn't healthy for me. Less bitchiness and more understanding, accepting of Medusa. Back to meditating under my Dragon Tree in FD.
Health
Am still conscious about weight loss. Am also very conscious to the fact that I am having trouble with keeping the discipline and thoughts I have in order to portion down on my food and choosing healthier meal. Something I am not proud of. Its so easy to find an excuse.
Need to fight my own DEMON
Never mind... forgive yourself and do better !
Personal
SS left a Specialized water bottle and a little teddy bear in my basket. He left a Lion mascot SSC soft toy 2 weeks ago. Sent a thank you note to his email. The least right thing to do.
The pain fades out through time ...
Be Selfish .... and look after No.1
Yesterday Wednesday was my day off. I had decided not to do much but managed to pull myself onto the pcn and did a slow 4km jog which ended up at Springleaf ( after so long ) for 2 pratas. Trying to stick to short, quick runs isn't as easy as I thought. The plan is 3k as often as possible. Why is it difficult to motivate myself ? After all it's not like it'll cause me pain on my knees or hip as it did with the previous longer distance running. Has it to do with overthinking of my current issues ? It will all work out !
Anyway, will try harder. This year is going to present a new adventure and challenges. Mainly with the property buying which will be soon I hope ! After 2019, I am ready to move on to a new chapter. Give yourself permission to show up in a small way..
Work
Currently the state of the virus (nCov2019) is at the forefront of everyone's mind. Personally I am still concerned over my travels to work (bus and mrt). The advice from MOH is not to wear mask unless you are sick but at the same time there had been reports of local transmission from people to people who have not traveled to China. That does not help my confidence. I have questions. Questions on how they purify the air in these public transport. I was shy at using the mask once, especially during the haze and went gungho on it. But this time, equipped with a mask and sanitizer dangling at the front of my bag, I'd go to work :D : Update ( 50 positive cases as of today )
On the personal front, I am realising how I am slowly being pulled into changing. Adapting a behaviour which I am not proud of. Why do I do it ? I think it's because of the deep need (which I did not realise) of wanting to be accepted and be on par with F since she is my sup. I am also observing certain traits and character about her. Is she insecure ? Why is she so affected by Medusa ? What do I have to do to handle my own emotion ? Reacting is certainly the wrong thing to do.
Perhaps I need to pull back now before it gets worse. Back to a milder, less toxic thoughts. Back out from the little space I have allowed to create with F. A space which isn't healthy for me. Less bitchiness and more understanding, accepting of Medusa. Back to meditating under my Dragon Tree in FD.
Health
Am still conscious about weight loss. Am also very conscious to the fact that I am having trouble with keeping the discipline and thoughts I have in order to portion down on my food and choosing healthier meal. Something I am not proud of. Its so easy to find an excuse.
Need to fight my own DEMON
Never mind... forgive yourself and do better !
Personal
SS left a Specialized water bottle and a little teddy bear in my basket. He left a Lion mascot SSC soft toy 2 weeks ago. Sent a thank you note to his email. The least right thing to do.
The pain fades out through time ...
Be Selfish .... and look after No.1
Sunday, January 12, 2020
13/1/20
A monday.
Things gone awry in the personal front with SS.
You dont realize much till you are forced to take some time out .. and usually, those time outs present you with a chance to think, sit back and reflect.
4 years has passed.
We had a beautiful start. We didnt want much from each other, just company as we both felt lonely within our own personal lives. Back then all was Ok. Never thought more about it than a good companionship. We both had our lives.
2018 was different. I was put in a situation where I had to grow. I took the opportunity to stand on my own .. full of worry, fear and anxiety. I did it all by myself while looking around for some tips from friends.
2019 early January, all settled. I moved into a small flat with Ad. With the help of some friends, I managed to move and store some stuff without added cost. Only the universe knows how grateful I was and still am. It was still a very scary and anxious period. In May, I started a job at the gardens. Slowly I got over the shock of 1) working 2) working with people with very different attitude and mentality. I thank God for my depth & perception.
All these while I have learned to grow. I fought to prove to myself that I can do it. Yes, I have a lot of growing up to do. I had been lucky these past 25 years.. No one can tell me otherwise.
SS has provided me with good company and sometime someone I can talk to or ask opinion from. A nice company to do my ride activities with, lunch as well as Timbre experiences. We did fall for each other.. but time has changed for me.
Time has come for me to close the chapter. I enjoyed the times but right from the start, I knew this was not meant to be long term. I wasn’t going to kid myself. I knew what I signed up for. And now, I have changed. I have different needs.
A monday.
Things gone awry in the personal front with SS.
You dont realize much till you are forced to take some time out .. and usually, those time outs present you with a chance to think, sit back and reflect.
4 years has passed.
We had a beautiful start. We didnt want much from each other, just company as we both felt lonely within our own personal lives. Back then all was Ok. Never thought more about it than a good companionship. We both had our lives.
2018 was different. I was put in a situation where I had to grow. I took the opportunity to stand on my own .. full of worry, fear and anxiety. I did it all by myself while looking around for some tips from friends.
2019 early January, all settled. I moved into a small flat with Ad. With the help of some friends, I managed to move and store some stuff without added cost. Only the universe knows how grateful I was and still am. It was still a very scary and anxious period. In May, I started a job at the gardens. Slowly I got over the shock of 1) working 2) working with people with very different attitude and mentality. I thank God for my depth & perception.
All these while I have learned to grow. I fought to prove to myself that I can do it. Yes, I have a lot of growing up to do. I had been lucky these past 25 years.. No one can tell me otherwise.
SS has provided me with good company and sometime someone I can talk to or ask opinion from. A nice company to do my ride activities with, lunch as well as Timbre experiences. We did fall for each other.. but time has changed for me.
Time has come for me to close the chapter. I enjoyed the times but right from the start, I knew this was not meant to be long term. I wasn’t going to kid myself. I knew what I signed up for. And now, I have changed. I have different needs.
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